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Sometimes I feel like I can do nothing but hurt people.

Lights Will Guide You Home

I know there are a lot of people who don't want to hear me say this and there are also a lot of people who want to hear me say this. I apologize to the former.

Lately, I've been listening to Coldplay. This stems from a conversation I had with one of my professors who asked me if I did indeed listen to them because I like Mat Kearney so much. Now, I was pretty anti-Coldplay for a while because I thought all their songs sounded the same or far too similar. I'm really digging this song called Fix You. I saw it on the HD Music Channel I get at the house and I was just blown away. It's so soothing. I looked up the lyrics and found that apply wonderfully to love (at least in the way I view it) and relationships (at least in the way I view them). I also figured that it would be a great opportunity to embed my first youtube video.



I think the chorus is the part that is the most interesting to me. I think the goal of every romantic relationship is to try to fix or complete another person. I think so many relationships fail because we spend so much time thinking about ourselves rather than remembering that relationships are about two becoming one and the two people fixing each other rather than our self-centered view when we are single.

I think home is such a wonderful idea. Home is where we are most able to be ourselves because we're a lot less worried about what people think of us. Home has so much to do with the people around us than an actual place though. I spend most of my year in a dorm room, but my home is about 30 minutes away from my dorm room, with the people I'm most comfortable with. I'm a year and a half away from being on my own for the first time. I'll be paying rent and bills and everything else and I'll be supporting either one or two people (depending on whether or not she keeps me). I'll be creating a home.

I guess my true message is to everyone, but I have one person in particular that these last few words are for.


"Lights will guide you home,
and ignite your bones,
and I will try to fix you"
-Fix You by Coldplay

Why do you speak with that accent now?

I have this amazing love/hate relationship with facebook.

It is such a handy resource sometimes, but it can make me so disappointed in people sometimes. I had an experience with the latter the other day. I added a new friend who was an old friend and immediately visited his page. I looked at his wall and, let me just say, I have never seen so many white suburban kids use the n-word. I was disgusted. I mean, these are kids that I went to high school with and hung out with in my neighborhood.

Now, maybe I'm just jealous. I mean, I don't like the n-word as much as a white man can. But to be able to use any slang at all would be wonderful. I sound like a parent. Kids today are so "gangsta."

I came away from this with one conclusion. I had assumed that the top two users of the n-word are rappers and racists. I guess suburban white kids are number three on that list now.

This suburban white kid is passing on that trend.

I guess I just want people to be real.

"So who do you fool with that costume now?
Everyone knows you're not who you seem
You've got a hard way about you
For someone whose passage is already paid"
-Dashboard Confessional

Entertainment Awards Part II

I'm gonna have to hurry through these entertainment awards so I can get on with my blogging. I still have so much to say and I don't spend enough time saying it. I have my very first book review and some CD reviews coming up soon.


Best Movie: Bourne Ultimatum

I have never felt tension as thick as I felt when I saw this movie. Just great atmosphere in the theater. The movie was amazing and I'm hoping we get a fourth installment so we can find out if something is happening with Jason Bourne (Matt Damon) and Nicky Parsons (Julia Stiles).

2. Ratatouille
3. Transformers

3 Movies I didn't make it to:

1. No Country for Old Men
2. Juno
3. Gone Baby Gone

Best TV Show:

Scrubs

Did you expect anything different?

Best TV Show No One Watched:

Friday Night Lights.

Low ratings but wow, what an amazing show.

Best Video Game:

Uncharted: Drake's Fortune

This might be the best game I have ever played. The story was amazing from beginning to end. It would have been a great movie by itself, but the fact that it was a great interactive movie makes it all that much better.

Athletic Event of the Year:

Boise State vs. Oklahoma in the Fiesta Bowl

Boise was able to take down Goliath using a hooker and lateral and the statue of liberty play. It doesn't get much better than that.

Well, that's it for this year. Should be an interesting 2008